I didn't buy into it all the way. The paradise pictures always seemed way too sappy for me. Everyone smiling too much, playing with pandas and tigers.... I guess it was my skeptical nature but I never, ever visualized paradise like this
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So I did not knock on doors or anything I did for the paradise, but because I wanted to be a good daughter and not disappoint my parents.
THIS!!! Oh how you took words out of my mouth!!! I was going to write these words when I read your post.
I may have believed that doctrine if these typical pictures where not attached to it. THE FANCY PICTURES completely flushed out any trace of belief I might have developped for it.
I am so sure that I could have believed the bible verses and the watchtower publications'words alone; a weird psycho-cognitive process made the pictures to automatically cancel any gram of faith I'd be tempted to put into the teaching.
I enjoyed looking at the pictures though.
They'd make my heart smile. My head and my heart screamed "too good to be true" even before I learnt that expression.